Transition

Well, it has been a while since I've laid my heart out. So, here we go. My life changed COMPLETELY several weeks ago. God brought to light some things that Preston is dealing with. Which means it is time to go home (Maryville) deal with them and basically start over. I'm so ok with this because if this means that he can heal and move forward in his life then I'M ALL FOR IT.

With this, comes, a new house, new jobs, new schools (for the girl's), Elizabeth staying with Julie (while I work), a lot of changes. The girl's aren't doing well with this yet, they are nervous and scared about trying to make new friends. I couldn't imagine at 11 and 9 leaving your friends that you love and making new ones. I know that they will be ok and will be happy eventually but trying to tell them that, and them believing me, is a different story. :)

I'm so at peace, which is nice, considering for 3 weeks I was absolutely in panic mode. God came in and gave me a peace that I can't explain. HE IS GOING TO PROVIDE. I'm so sure of this. Now, how He will provide, is another story. Who knows, we will see.

Hopeful

I'm so tired of the emotional roller coaster I've been on for 2 years now. I love my husband so much but I can tell he is not ok these days. I only wish he would let go of his pride and get help, whatever that is. Being a single parent is truly hard. I feel so sorry for women who have to be single parent's, this job was not created for singleness. It should be a joint effort but these days he seems to be doing more damage than good. The girl's cry a lot and he has a very short temper, which is not my husband. This has been going on for about 8 weeks or so. He'll do good for a few days and be himself then he falls backwards. It is so hard to deal with this but I'm trying my best.

A Thoughtful Day

Well, today I found out that Barack Obama is our new president. My heart ache's. This man is so liberal and is against everything I stand for. He believes in killing babies, he believes homosexuality is ok, he is a man who makes me wonder, what has happened to America. Oh, how I'm contemplating this country of mine. How confused and blind our people are....even so called christians. Christians are supposed to be Christ like, how can you vote for a man who goes against what Christ has taught us. How can a "christian" vote based on their pocket books and not their moral's? How can you call yourself a Christian when you vote for a man who will run our country based on what HE believes not what God's word teaches? Don't you realize what is going to happen to this country? So what, IF, you have more money in your pocket when the world around you is going to melt morally right in front of your eyes. Oh, my heart ache's, I'm soooo confused. Where are the TRUE CHRISTIANS OF JEHOVAH, YAHWEH, our Creator of goodness and morals? Where are you? Are there any out there?

A thoughtful day.......hmmmm.

Sunday Morning

Well, here I sit once again. With 3 girl's who at different times don't feel well. I know they will feel better soon, but...There is so much I would like to get off of my chest but for fear of someone reading this and "telling on me" I will keep everything to myself. I hope everyone has a good day.

October 14, 2008

Well, it has been a long time since I've written. I got up early this morning had my quiet time with the Lord and went for a walk. What a difference today has been.

Life here has been very busy and non-stop. We are homeschooling, watching a baby, trying to clean the house (not very often, gross), and run a business. I've had some people ask me, "how do you do it", well, it is called A CALENDAR. Thank the Lord for calendar's, if it wasn't for my calendar I would be in serious trouble. I stay pretty tired, but I'm doing good with it. Homeschooling is going much better this time around. I know it is because I'm not as stressed. As I'm getting older I'm realizing that my attitude and tone set the stage for a good day or a bad one. We as women have sooooo much influence on our surroundings. I believe we have more influence than we could ever imagine. God has given us this influence so we can influence those around us to look to Him and trust Him and adore Him. If we are not doing those things then we are influencing those around us to do the same.

Today is a pleasant day with the girl's. They are actually getting along and having fun. I believe it is because I started my day correctly. I hope you did too and if you didn't start today right start tomorrow.